saya demam.
saya selesema.
saya batuk.
saya sakit tekak.
dan yang memburukkan lagi keadaan.
saya EXAM.

perjalanan pulang dari shah alam ke ampang.
dammmmm3 tiring.
not feeling well was a thing.
but the long dread journey was another thing.
i had to take 5 buses than 2 as usual.
thnx to RAPIDKL for their 'improved' services.
not to mention, when i lost in wonder in between Central Market and Petaling Street.
urrrgh.if only i had more money.huhuhU~

and then.came the weekend.
a time i've always been waiting for.
yesterday i spent half of my day with my sunshine.
it was raining.but i felt happy.
walking in the rain....he asked me to hold his hand.
instead of not supposed to feel anything irregular..
i saw him like a prince.n me the princess.
when the time had come for me to leave.
it was always the harderst part.
i know m gonna miss him soon after he's out of my sight.

a person keeps saying that m a complicated person.
and i myself made my life becomes more complicated.
sometimes i wonder.how to not to be complicated.

i was once a person who was outspoken.
i didnt hide my feelings.
i didnt hide my thoughts.
i shared and i gave what i got.
but things happened had saddened me.
n i promise not to go through the same thing.again.
i started to keep everything to myself.
maybe because m afraid of the feedbacks.
or maybe.m afraid they are getting bored.with me.
or maybe.i just dont have the courage to face the world at all.
the mature me is not mature enough.

to the one who always think he knows me.
just because we've known each other for nearly 5years.
i think there's a lot for u to discover.
i may not the same person u met yesterday.
as changes are every day.every minute.every second.every breath.
but i shouldnt neglected what you ave done to me.
or the changes you'd brought into my life.
life would never be the same without you.
thnx for giving me the lights and guides when i needed them most.

i dont need many friends.
but i damnly need good friends.
who are not tired to listen.
who are not tired to lend their shoulders for me to cry.
who are not tired to give me their backs to lean on.
even one is enough.

i have this blog.
is for me to voicing out.
what is behind my words.
what is behind my actions.

because m no longer the old me.
m just afraid.very afraid.of life.

the love we have.
the everything we've shared.
m going to lose them all.
if fear conquered me.and let me fall.
blunt.confused.wonder.
mixed up.n left me with no emotion.
no tears to cry.
no voice to deny.
o' precious of my love life.
give me the chance.
lead me to a better life.

ketakutan bisa membinasakn...
dan kini gue harus berani berdepan...
memberikn seribu kepercayaan pada loe.
andai gue nggak mau kehilangan...

syg...gue syg bgt sama loe.
maaf kerana selalu melukakn kamu.
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berikn gue masa tuk gue bisa membetulkn...